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| Friday, April 22nd, 2005 | | 2:14 am |
I miss you Kelly
Today I found out after weeks of uncertainty that my cousin took his own life. No one had any idea that he was despairing behind the happiness he seemed to show to his friends and family. And whatever the pain was it drove him to ending it, at the expense of his life. I don't think he meant to cause anyone grief and I don't think he consciously said "hey I think I'll die today" I think that he felt so alone and it hurt so much that he was unable to think outside the pain, and he acted on an instinct everyone of us has. So he left an 8 page letter, and he drove his truck to a place called Hope. He flooded it with exhaust and off he went. I hope he's at peace, finally. But I can't help wonder at a world that drives its youth to death. He was 25, he was fit and healthy, he was charming. He liked philosophy, and he carved his own jewelry. Lapis was his favourite stone. He could have been a model and he was an intellectual. He was so kind-hearted and pure that he glowed, he was honest. And he is dead. Meanwhile the drunken, sow idiot that attacked me on my birthday is still around, sitting on her worthless ass. She got accepted into teacher's college. Even though she hates children, they are the only people she can bully to her satisfaction. She's 35 and you can see the greed and the bovine intelligence leaking out from her beady eyes. She gets to live. She who spreads spite and suffering lives and a young man who gave love and laughter dies. | | Sunday, March 20th, 2005 | | 1:54 am |
Hair Dye Advice
So what do you do when you dye your hair "light brown" and it comes out orange? Just wondering. | | Sunday, January 30th, 2005 | | 6:54 pm |
| | Tuesday, December 14th, 2004 | | 12:20 pm |
Border Guards
You know, citizens of America should be very concerned about the people they've hired to sit in those booths and wield guns. Mike and I came over and were harassed by a middle aged buffalo woman. Now before anyone wails on me for reaming out the fat chicks, let me explain the difference between curvy, sexy women and buffalo women. The curvy woman has a natural softness and a relatively even divide of boobs and ass, she looks NATURAL, like she can take a stroll and not run over small children, lift some weights, whatever, but isn't as neurotic as the salad nibbling neurotic rabbit chicks. The buffalo woman hates the world and everyone in it. Often found at border patrol shacks she has a disproportionately large ass from rarely leaving it. And I shit you not, Pam's law of border guards, the buffalo of a female guard's ass is in direct proportion to how small she feels her penis is, and how much she will hassle you out of jealousy and inadequacy. Needless to say, Mike and I got hassled and pulled over. Buffalo woman demanded to know if i was living in the states and ofcourse I said "No, I'm getting ass-raped hundreds of dollars a month to rent my closet room, thanks." Well minus the ass raping. I have a low tolerance for fools, especially bitches who think they are manly cause they have a gun. I bet I have better aim, and I haven't used a firearm in a decade. So she's all "Where's your luggage?" after she rips all my stuff out of my bag and Mike and I explained that I left some clothes and what not at his house b/c we're bf/gf, etc. Then she starts yelling "I think you're living in the states!" And I laughed and said "No, I'm not." And then she says "Well where are your toiletries, you don't have any?" "And I said, well, I'm not a girly girl, I don't wear makeup, I have a spare toothbrush that I leave at his place, I use his shampoo, what's your point?" So we had to go into immigration and the guy in there was actually so cute I wanted to take him home and keep him. He was teasing me for taking a dead language, and after his co worker pointed out a spelling error in his writeup thing I said "See, I bet HE took latin" And then he said something about them worrying I wasn't planning on returning to Canada, and I said "You're damn right I am, I have a final on Friday!" Ugh so he let us go, and told me to bring a copy of my lease next time so buffalo bitch would leave me alone. Fuck, when she saw my copy of "Sappho" I was hoping she'd leave me alone. When we got home (well Mike's home) I discovered that my stuff was all over the place and not only are my file cards and highlighters missing (WTF why not take the Rammstein CD?) but the fuckers DENTED my fucking Alexander the Great textbook! I LOVE that text. BASTARDS! I hate the arrogant "You're living in the states" crap too. Sure America is a decent country, but it's not like Canada is soooooo rotten that I'm fleeing the clean air and open space and bush free mentality to the rude border guards of the states (*rolls eyes*) I remember one hispanic buffalo woman who was all "You can't live in de states, deese isn't your kontree" like a broken record, maybe she was channeling what was said to her the first time she tried to immigrate to the states.Ugh. I just HATE the whole self misogyny that women perpetuate onto other women, because there was really no reason to pull Mike and I over, she saw a young attractive woman as one half of an apparantly happy couple and she decided that she was jealous and wanted to assert power over us. I just need to learn to keep the disdain out of my voice when dealing with morons. Everyday people's projections of their own misery onto others never seems to stop amazing me. People crave power so desperately, but they go about trying to wield it over others, no one seems to realize that true power is an internal state. Perhaps I'm stupid for not being intimidated by people on various meds toting guns, but I know that the power is truly mine. Or perhaps I just assume that I can run faster than the border guards can waddle. You should all feel so safe that your borders are protected by angry, sexually frustrated cows that will waddle into the fray to save you from Canadians while the terrorists in the next car move along through. :P | | Thursday, December 2nd, 2004 | | 6:21 pm |
Hey Moderator
Our good friend, Mr. Larter's post has been invaded by some walking hormones attached to a brain stem. I don't think they're down with the kitchen parties, the salty air, and the general polite civilised society we have going on here. What are we going to do about it? | | Thursday, November 25th, 2004 | | 1:21 pm |
Give George Bush the welcome he deserves! 5pm November 30 Victoria Park (corner of Spring Garden and South Park) One Law For All On November 30 George W. Bush will go on trial under Canada's Crimes against Humanity and War Crimes Act at Victoria Park (corner of Spring Garden and South Park) at 5 pm and you have been called to the jury. We need a massive turnout to send a message to Ottawa and the rest of the world, so bring your friends and family and spread the word! After the trial we will accompany Mr. Bush back to the US consulate. Also, we are looking for people who can help with an information picket in front of the office of SNC Lavalin on Spring Garden Road from 12-5pm on November 30th. SNC Lavalin owns the Canadian company which is providing one of the most basic necessities for the US occupation forces in Iraq --bullets. SNC is part of a multinational consortium of small-calibre ammunition producers whose purpose is to supply between 300-500 million more bullets to occupation forces per year, and potentially for at least five years. Email jdimondg@dal.ca to participate. Contact us if you are able to participate in leafleting / banners in Burnside on November 30th re Canadian bullets in Iraq. Organized by the Halifax Peace Coalition http://hfxpeace.chebucto.cahfxpeace@chebucto.ca | | Wednesday, November 24th, 2004 | | 2:04 am |
Make a post (public, friendslocked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want. - If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you. - Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ so that the holiday joy will spread. :Step Two: - Surf around your friendslist (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part: - If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it. You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call. There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special. 1. A kind old draft that would take care of Mike and keep Simon company. (a rust but trusty truck and trailer would be nice too :P 2. poems about happy things and stories of thwarted love 3. The balls to set things straight with a certain individual 4. donations of fresh fruit and veggies to the Truro Food Bank so they can offer poor kids something other than stale Timmy's donuts to eat. also help out the heat and warmth fund www.thaw.org 5. a plane ticket to Arizona 6. Simon's mane and tail brushed free of all tangles, pulled and nicely braided with his mane on one side of his neck so you can actually see it, (and his sheath cleaned if you're feeling really generous, I have the gloves and the cleaner). 7. For everyone to be really patient with little kids, even if they drive you nuts and by teaching them to be comfortable with themselves and therefore confident enough to be kind to others. 8. Give enough money for some coffee or tea (or more if you have it) to the next homeless person you see. And as an addendum, give tea to the most stressed out person you know. 9. Papo Roman and Gaul toys! Because I'll have fun playing with them on my desk! http://www.hobbybunker.com/categorylist.cfm?body=mfg&ID=82&mscID=32OR for someone to knit me the Dr. Who scarf, I have the pattern, I just can't knit. 10. A really good home for Boris, where he could be truly happy and have a job, I just can't give the poor guy the attention he wants. 11. For no one to beat their kids, or call them names, or make them feel worthless, same deal with animals 12. Smile at someone you don't like tommorrow, or at someone who looks crabby on the street 13. Strike up a conversation with a perfect stranger, provided they aren't giving you the wiggins. 14. Call a friend you haven't spoken to in a very long time and tell them you miss them. Or call me! 15. My grandmother has a brain tumour and I don't have faith that she will respond to radiation therapy. So pray for a quick and peaceful death for her or speedy recovery, whichever is meant to be, and for a little peace and happiness for my family and for other families in awkward situations. | | Thursday, November 18th, 2004 | | 2:23 pm |
WOW!
It's 17 Degrees Celsius here! In November! Holy cow, batman! Windsor isn't so bad afterall! | | Thursday, November 4th, 2004 | | 9:31 am |
| | Friday, October 29th, 2004 | | 4:30 pm |
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For your amusent - RANT of a political nature
It really irks me when people blindly follow ideologies without bothering to question them. Some people assume that b/c Bush or Kerry says something and they support their party that it MUST be correct. I'm rather peeved at some of the attitudes I've heard regarding the elections, where people are voting strictly on stupid party lines rather than who is best for the job. I listened to one woman on the radio who when asked why she was voting for Bush kept repeating "I'm a republican. Bush is a good man and a good president." When asked to elaborate ie "Why is he a good president?" She kept saying "He's a good man." Well there are many men out there who are "good" but are they all suitable for the presidency? Her attitude was just so obstinate and her mentality so "us vs. them" as though she validated her life by dictating to others how they should life theirs (live by example you vapid cow!). I hated her implication that if you didn't vote for Bush and support the war you're unpatriotic and hate america. GOD I THOUGHT PROPAGANDA WENT OUT WITH HITLER!?!?! Or the selfishness of the people I've heard say re: the reinstitution of the draft "Well if I had kids, I'd vote Kerry, cause I wouldn't want them to go to war, but I don't so I'm voting for Bush." So it's OK to send someone else's kids off to slaughter? Ugh, hypocrisy, someone kick me before I turn into a sociopath. Or the people who are voting for Bush because their evangelical ministers are telling them he'll bring about the second coming. So we want the world to end? Gee, guys, thanks. Nothing like four horsemen and brimstone to shit on my existential cornflakes. I'm going to laugh my ass off if there is an intelligence requirement for the rapture. You have to fill out a scantron before Michael will let you get sucked up into the light. Gee some people scored awfully low on that verbal.... Do people not realise that historically not seperating church and state is a very bad thing? I'm king, I'm divinely appointed by God, therefore my will is divine. I can do whatever I want. Nanner, nanner, nanner! Hellllooooooo to the new Inquisition. Personally I think God probably gets pissed off when certain people claim they are more capable than others of interpreting his will, and that their interpretations and semantics are what should be held as truth. And I'm also going to laugh if the rapture happends and all the fruitcakes who prayed for the end of the world, and tried to gay bash the constition and deny women the rights to their bodies, etc. line up front and scramble to get on board and Michael says "Yeah, sorry you're not what we're looking for in this rapture. You annoy God, you make him drink. Go away." For example: "Judge not lest ye be judged" so re: abortion, homosexuality, etc. whatever else you want to list as sin or not. Isn't that between an individual and a higher power? How dare a bunch of uneducated twits dictate to me precisely what and how my relationship to the divine should be. This is why I don't go to church. God and I do just fine by our ownselves. I can't stand blind ideology. I'd label myself a personal libertarian I suppose, but I'm a bit socialist, a bit moderate, a bit liberal and conservative to. I believe a govt should take care of its people, but people should take care of their own beliefs. The less the govt interferes in my daily life the happier I am. I think income tax in unconstitutional. Personally, for what you Americans pay in taxes and what you get in return, I really think y'all are getting ripped off. Why are people so apathetic and cowed that they question nothing? Are we so desperate for an identity that we look not to ourselves or to nature, or to god but to ideas spun by a select few to further their egos? Did you know that Socrates was executed because he asked too many questions? I guess people were uncomfortable that someone was dissecting their bubble. It's OK if someone questioning a belief makes someone else uncomfortable, but isn't it just scary when we try to quash the right to question? Is it now a matter of, you have the right to believe in something so long as it's our something. I should so be studying right now. God I'm so cranky right now. | | Friday, October 15th, 2004 | | 1:22 pm |
The Wyandotte Corridor
A picture is worth more than my words, but my camera is in absentia I woke up to early morning post downpour, the drizzle of when one shuts off the shower tap and there's still the small stream. Just a reminder that I'm not quite finished yet. I left late, again, no breakfast for the wicked. The elementary school across the road, was throbbing with contained recess screams, diverted to rainy day macaroni mosaics. Because if you get the children wet they melt, or the rain will make them cry. And one of the first things I was taught in elementary school was that if you cried you were weak, and I'd always thought rain was so sad, but it was good to ache with the droplets. I trotted up Wyandotte street, clear for a respite of lumbering transport trucks bound for the bridge, emitting the highest cancer rates in Canada. There was no time to stop into Tong's Hong Kong style bakery and say hello to the little lady who teaches me sporadic chinese, and I glanced furtively at the pawn shop, where the DVD box set wants to seduce me away from my studies, even though Latin gives better head. The Campbell Baptist church has a large LED display that tells the date, time and temperature, but I think it is fast. It was 11 degrees in the drizzle and it reminded me of many of my trips to Halifax. I love Halifax in the rain, every building wants to tell a secret, but only the weather can translate. Rain in Halifax wrapped me in a fuzzy blanket. An older woman outside of Harvey's asked me where the anthropology building is, I gave a vicinity and made it to class with three minutes to spare. There were extra copies of the assignment due next week on the table, and I know Theodore and Jacqlyn don't have a set. However, I have picked up every assignment for them and they never come to class. I'm giving them bad wine. I left the papers. | | Thursday, October 14th, 2004 | | 3:27 pm |
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